You know your day is going to be torrid when you wake up to the calls of "Mimi Mimi Mimi Mimi" repeatedly at 6 in the morning.
The first thought that runs through my mind when I wake up is "do I have enough time for a quick shower before Josh wakes up?" usually the answer is a resounding NO!
So no shower for me and no going back to sleep for Josh - bugger!
And on top of that I am sporting a huuuge spot on my chin.
So it's all rubbish! I can't be bothered with makeup today nor contacts, there isn't much point looking glamorous when you don't have anyone to look glamorous for.

Anyway.
First thing this morning I get a parcel, I immediately assumed that it was the cushion I had bought off of ebay but no........... it's a pair of black dominatrix boots!!!!!
This is just going too far!
I sent Mike an email about them and he emailed me back saying that they'd go rather nicely with the black catsuit he had bought me.
I hasten to add that I threw that away a few days ago in a moment of self-empowerment.
And he is supposed to be seeing someone! Are all men the same?
I wonder if she's aware of his fetishes? I only found out once we had seperated. A whole 3 years of living with someone and not knowing them at all, it's as though he was a stranger.
But no!
I can't say that I find bondage even remotely arousing, each to their own, I'll try anything once, and then again just to make doubly sure that it isn't for me....
But no, certainly not bondage!
Balls to him!!! They're going to the same place as the catsuit - in the bin!!!!

It's been raining all morning so Josh and I have been stranded indoors.
Three cheers for cbeebies!
I know that an awful lot of research has been done about the evils of tv for young children, but if cbeebies didn't exist I'm sure quite a few parents would be in mental institutions by now, me included!

Josh had a hypo before lunch, a bit scary, so he's rather out of sorts now, I've put him to bed for a nap but I doubt he'll submit.
Maybe he will, I hope he does, I could do with a nap too.

Sarah has finally agreed to go speed dating with me after at least a years worth of nagging - hoorah!
We're going on the 29th of August in Leamington - can't wait. I can't buy the tickets until my rent cheque goes in on Friday, living on the edge!
But I think I need it, for self confidence and all that.

I was speaking to Mike last night and he was talking about the dynamics of relationships changing and things needing to re-negotiated and to be honest it all goes way over my head..........
............ but he said that I'd soon meet someone and they'd be moving in with me....
Has he lost the plot completely? I can't even fathom meeting someone who would be interested in me, that interested in fact that they'd tolerate my rather difficult 3 year old child and choose to put up with him every day, of their own free will!!!!
I wouldn't even choose to look after him every day out of my own free will!
I'm doomed!
I'm destined to grow old alone and have many many cats that will be found feasting on my body about 7 months after I've died!

At least speed dating will be fun.
In fact my friend Paul almost married someone whom he met speed dating.
She was a bit of a phsyco and he was extremely limp about it all.
Maybe I'll find me a phsyco to marry, anything would be better than having to spend another night alone waking up every hour to Josh's cries.